Hymn #674

Last week when I had my interview they told me I would hear from them early in the week about the second round of interviews. Monday and Tuesday have gone by and I haven't heard a word good or bad, so I'm not really sure where that leaves me. I do know that I've had "In The Bulb There Is A Flower" stuck in my head since Monday evening when it started snowing. All day yesterday and so far today the familiar lyrics have been on repeat:

In the bulb there is a flower,

In the seed, an apple tree,

In cocoons a hidden promise:

Butterflies will soon be free!

In the cold and snow of winter,

There's a spring that waits to be,

Unrevealed until it's season,

Something God alone can see. 

Maybe it's because it's a catchy song. Maybe it's because the song is a lullaby of sorts, I don't remember ever learning it but it was a staple of camp Christian Education time and vespers services. The lyrics were written in magic marker on chart paper above the piano in our main building complete with little doodles of tulips and apple trees. Whatever the reason it's a comforting song to be playing on repeat when I'm in the middle of season with more questions than answers. Just wandering around the proverbial forest setting off down different paths only to discover they're all dead ends. 

And as much as I appreciate a good adventure and generally enjoy the scenic route I'm kind of over it. I don't want to "savour my season" or "embrace the unknown" or "enjoy the journey" because those things are all fine for a while but regardless of how much fun you're having on vacation you always want to get back to your own bed eventually. 

While everyone is busy admiring the twinkle lights, eagerly awaiting watching their littles opening presents on Christmas morning and starting to set goals for 2017 I'm refreshing my e-mail every hour (that may sound a lot but it's an improvement over every 15 minutes) and wondering if somewhere along the line I took the wrong exit and am doomed to wander around the wrong forest forever. 

My goal, wish, objective, intent...purpose in life is to have a permanent, full time camp job. Anything past that is a bonus. 

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Friday Five

{one}

This is a snippet of an e-mail I got yesterday afternoon. I'm house/pet sitting for a friend and it will potentially overlap with when I'm anticipating hearing about the grant. It's not a huge deal, but I am going to have to pack strategically and be prepared with office clothes and casual clothes. I had to laugh when I read it though because it's a perfect analogy of where I am in life right now. No idea what's next, but I know somethings next and I'm at peace with that. 

{two}

Wake Me Up - Avicii 

I am seriously obsessed with this song! I can't figure out exactly what it is I love about it so much but I am a big fan!

{three}

Ketchup Chips. Not a day goes by that I don't mourn the fact Vanilla Coke isn't available in Canada anymore. (Seriously, if you have access to this drink one for me and savour every drop.) The thing that softens the blow is my unlimited access to a wide variety of ketchup chips. And the store brands are always so much better than the big brand names. Better = coated with as much salty red stuff as possible. Bonus points for ruffled or baked varieties! 

{four}

I bought a Halloween dress for my cat this week. It's actually an extra-small dog dress but it fits Peyton just fine. I'm pretty sure putting my cat in a dress qualifies me for a new level of Crazy Cat Lady status but I'm okay with that. 

{five}

Dear Miley, put some clothes on. You are a seriously talented singer and songwriter. I get that you're a grown up now, no more Hannah Montana, that's great. But you know what grown ups do? They wear clothes!! Because in order to be respected as a grown up you have to respect yourself. And I find it hard to believe that somebody who is parading around in their underwear has a lot of self respect. End rant. 

Friday Five

 

{one}

I am super excited for this weekend! I'm the one doing the traveling but it is well worth ever second of the drive to spend the weekend with one of my best camp friends!

{two}

The only thing I love more than a good love story is a love story that invovles camp. Which is probably why this story in the NY Times this week made me smile so much. 

 {three}

I seriously love Luke Bryan's new album. I've been cycling through which song is my favourite, currently it's this one.

{four}

Still no word on grant money to make my job full-time...I was really hoping there would be some news by the end of this week but no such luck! I am doing my very best to have patience and trust in God's timing.

{five} 
I've been thinking a lot about this quote recently. I don't necessarily agree with it 100% but it reminds me of someone and there's just something in my head that keeps coming back to it.