Monday, 20 November 2017
I started writing this post back in August and the original title was 'Mid-Year Regroup' and now it's nearing the end of November. The time has come and gone to do any sort of mid-year regroup but I've made up my mind to return to a semi-regular blogging schedule and after more than six months of sporadic blogging a regroup is definitely in order!
I've managed to post an extremely general and not very interesting post once a month or so but nothing more than that so here's a month by month summary of what I've been up to since I essentially stopped blogging back in February.
February & March// This two months blend together in a lot of 'what the heck am I doing here'. My introduction to the new job and new community and all the newness was a struggle. I'm pretty sure the only motivation for sticking with it was pure stubbornness and a vague belief that everything happens for a reason and this is the place I was meant to be in this moment.
April// By April I felt a little more hopeful that maybe my 'yes' to this adventure wasn't a colossal regret. There were sprinklings of 'God Moments' and I found myself breathing a little easier, feeling a little less anxious and cautiously optimistic.
May// Some, but not all of the decreased stress and optimism followed me into May. Some days were easier than others but I still felt like I was in survival mode just making it through the day. I think I learned a lot during the month and was really excited that spring had arrived!
June// I was so happy that winter was really over. I spent a lot more time outside, going for walks in the evening and going with the flow. Looking back over the year the common thread seems to be that when I was 'going with the flow' life felt easier and happier. Maybe that's because I've been reading a lot of books and listening to a lot of podcasts lately on the theme of flow/living with intention etc.
July// The beginning and middle of July was pretty great. I felt like I was maybe starting to hit my stride and finding my place. I was house and pet sitting for most of the month and it was really lovely having pets to keep me company in the evening and having access to satellite T.V.. I was able to visit camp at the end of the month and that heavily influenced August...
August// I spent a lot of this month in tears and was kind of a basket case. After visiting camp at the end of July I had a whole lot of feelings. I did pull myself together coming on the end of the month, heavily infused by the fact I found out I would get to move in September!
September// At the first of the month I moved (again) to a new apartment! I'm anticipating living here for at least a year before I even contemplating moving again. It's much nicer than the first apartment I lived in, has much more privacy and I've been more interested in making it feel like home since I know I'm going to be here for awhile.
October// I had really great weekends in October and it was so nice to have that option. H. & R. came to visit when I was in the other apartment but it was pretty cramped and it rained the whole time. I love being able to host people and cook supper and have room for overnight guests! I let some negative people make me feel pretty terrible far often than I should this month. This has really been my first experience directly working with Passive Aggressive Negative Nelly's on a daily basis and it's a huge learning curve.
And there you have it, that brings us to November and things are still chugging along. I've never done a Q&A post before and I'm not even sure how many readers are still around there parts but I'll put it out there - if there's any burning questions you'd like to have answers to since I last blogged let me know in the comments and I'll compile a post!
Sunday, 12 November 2017
Personal Life// It's been a full two months since I moved and having a place that feels more long term has made a big difference. This month I'm modifying my evening schedule and even though it's only been a week I'm loving the amount of breathing room it's given me.
Hobbies// I'm working through July in my Project Life album and seriously considering going weekly for 2018. It seems like a big undertaking and I also feel like I can make it work. My Blog is in need of some serious TLC, I managed to get rid of the unsightly PhotoBucket error images but now buttons to Bloglovin' and Instagram are also gone. If anyone knows how to fix that I'd appreciate the help!
Career// Some days I feel like it's starting to come together. Other days that statement couldn't be farther from the truth. I really need to do a full post dedicated on this topic. In general things are okay, there are pros and cons and somedays one of those columns outweighs the other. Likely, that's the way it's always going to be and it's a matter of deciding what to focus on in any given moment.
Spirituality// Why are Bible Journal supplies so darn expensive?! I guess more specifically Single Column Bibles because I already have all of the other supplies. They all seem to be in the $50-$100 range BEFORE shipping. Maybe I'm just looking in the wrong places? Other than that I still have a really solid bedtime routine and I've found some great podcasts that have help deal with life's stresses.
Health// Reclaiming my evenings is going to make this a lot easier. I'm excited to meal plan again and have more control over meals. I've been doing much better in the realm of hydration. I did wind up with an autumn cold but I powered through and it only lasted a couple of days. I know I'm a much happier human when I sleep well so I try really hard to make that a priority and most days I'm successful.
Goals// I've been reading a lot lately about the difference between goals and intentions (also a separate post) and it's totally reframed the way I think about accomplishments. While I continue to think about the implications of that I'm not making any new goals.
Sunday, 22 October 2017
Personal Life// At the beginning of September I moved to a new apartment which was a majorly positive change. I'm struggling a little to get out of the work-place bubble. I really miss being involved in Guiding but the closest units are about 45 minutes away and that's just not practical in winter. A coworker/friend is determined to set me up with someone, the first guy hasn't worked out because he moved out west for work (much like most males in my dating age bracket). Now she has someone else in mind so stay tuned for those developments.
Hobbies// I've managed to catch up as far as mid-June in my Project Life album so that's coming along. It's been awhile since I've done any pretty planning in my planner but I did buy a new sketch book and have done a few pages of what many would consider 'art journalling'. Books have been gathering dust in favour of re-watching Grey's Anatomy on Netflix. I usually read about one book a month but could (and should!) be reading more.
Career// Some days I feel like it's starting to come together. Other days that statement couldn't be farther from the truth.
Spirituality// I still really like the idea of Bible Journalling but haven't done a darn thing to make that a reality. I'm still journalling and keeping a gratitude journal with an acceptable level of consistency. Recently I discovered a really great podcast that I've been trying to listen to and reflect on at least every second day.
Health// It's ironic that one of the reasons I'm spending some time blogging this afternoon is because I've somehow acquired a cold and lack motivation to move from my couch. I was in a good rhythm for a while with eating & sleeping & hydrating and then I made a hard left. Now my sleep schedule is inconsistent, I've been eating weird meals and drinking too much coffee and not enough water.
Goals// I've been doing some research on 'goals' versus 'intentions' and it's really changed my perspective on the whole topic. The difference between setting a goal to practice self care implies that there's a time limit on it and once it's achieved it's done. Having the intention to practice self care implies that it's not just something you do and is done but something you are constantly considering when you're thinking about goals. Moving to a new apartment was definitely a goal because now it's accomplished and it's not something I need to think about again for a while. All that to day I'm doing some reevaluating on what are my goals and what are my intentions.
I have some drafts kicking around that I'm going to attempt to edit and get published this week. First though I'm going to eat some soup and watch an episode of Grey's before summoning all the motivation to move off the couch.
I have some drafts kicking around that I'm going to attempt to edit and get published this week. First though I'm going to eat some soup and watch an episode of Grey's before summoning all the motivation to move off the couch.
Sunday, 6 August 2017
Personal Life// I spent the month of July house/pet sitting and it was a really good break. It helped me shake off some of the post-camp life sadness and refocus on the things I should be focusing on. I am forever thankful for H. & R. who continue to help me navigate life, especially lately when sometimes that just looks like Skyping with me while I mumble about life.
Hobbies// Having a whole house to myself instead of my small apartment meant that I spent a whole weekend surrounded my Project Life supplies and playing catch up. I'm still really far behind in terms of finished pages but I have photos printed until mid-June and have finished until the middle of March so things aren't as bleak as they once were. I am going to try to dedicate one weekend a month to catching up and hopefully by the end of the year I'll be up to date. I had my camera out more frequently in July and that also made me happy.
Career// There were times this month when I felt really good about life. And then there was the week I spent mostly in tears because I can't believe I walked away from camp. I've been an emotional mess in this arena lately and it probably is going to stay like that for a little while longer.
Spirituality// I've been doing a lot of research on Bible Journalling and am thinking about jumping on board that trend. I've always doodled and made notes in the margins of my Bible but I like the idea of taking it up a notch. The biggest hurdle is that I can't seem to find a n affordable Journalling Bible. I'd like one that has designated columns for journalling but I don't want to spend $100 on one. Suggestions?
Health// Having a dog around made it so much easier to go for evening walks. And the warm weather always makes it easier to drink more water since I always have my water bottle with me. The eating breakfast trend lasted about two weeks before I returned to
Goals// I still keep telling myself that this is the month I start blogging again. And then the month goes by and the opportunity is gone. There is a lot of things I miss about blogging though and I think that once fall comes I'll be able to start figuring out some new routines that include more time for blogland.
Thursday, 6 July 2017
The one constant in life is that every time this link up rolls around I am shocked that another month has passed.
Personal Life// June was busy! There was Girl Guide Camp, a weekend visit from H. & R., a trip home and one rainy weekend that I mostly just spent indoors and rearranging my pantry.
Hobbies// June seemed to have a lot of full weekends and as a result I didn't really make any time for for Project Life or blogging or anything that wasn't watching Netflix.
Career// Maybe it's because I'm not the new(est) girl anymore but things are starting to feel a little better. Things are still 100x more difficult than what I thought they were going to be and that's hard but getting a little easier. Or I'm just learning to manage my expectations better.
Spirituality// Journalling is still going strong, I've almost filled a full notebook for the first half of the year and have a second one waiting in the wings. My 'word of the week' project ebbs and flows from week to week. I'm not entirely sure how many words I've gotten through but I know it's not on par with how many weeks have already past.
Health// I'm making more of an effort to eat breakfast. Now that it's light out it's easier to wake up a little earlier and eat something before heading to the office. At least that's what I'm telling myself... I haven't been sleeping great so that might also be a factor.
Goals// I'm working on a mid-year goal regroup post but in the mean time I want to focus on blogging more and getting caught up with my Project Life album. And doing some fun summer things that I haven't done in years because I've always been at camp!
Thursday, 1 June 2017
May was a roller coaster. Over the course of the month I experienced the full range of emotions...occasionally all within a 24 hour time frame. And all of the ups and downs made it go by so quickly. I really can't believe May is over, it's been by far the fastest month since I started this new adventure.
Personal Life// The beginning of May was really challenging, the middle of May was definitely a struggle and I'm ending the month feeling a little better about things but still uncertain. This weekend I'm heading to Girl Guide Camp and next weekend H. & R. are coming to visit. Both of those things are very exciting!
Hobbies// I didn't make a whole lot of time for any of the usual activities this month. My main hobby was re-watching Grey's Anatomy. It was pretty cold and rainy for most of the month so my evening walks didn't happen. I did squeeze in one afternoon of Project Life-ing and managed some reading so it wasn't a complete fail.
Career// I feel a little more confident in what I'm doing this month. Although I'm still so far away from feeling like I have things organized and under control.
Spirituality// Journalling continues to be an important part of my bedtime routine. Other than that I'm not really actively doing anything to keep life balanced.
Health// My pop consumption definitely increased this month, so I'm going to work on reining that back to a more acceptable once or twice a week opposed to four or five times a week.
Goals// I did splurge on an Erin Condren! I still feel a little ridiculous about spending that kind of money on a planner but it happened. I'm excited about the hourly template and to start using it at the end of June. Once again I didn't do so great in the blog post department. June is going to be for reading, writing and organizing.
Monday, 22 May 2017
The week leading up to camp has always been full of little rituals and traditions. Things that made me feel prepared to start the summer. I would spend an evening assembling welcome bags for all the staff, an afternoon making warm fuzzy envelopes and many hours trying not to overpack but also not run out of clean clothes before the next laundry day rolled around. I would make sure to include a meal of three cheese pizza pops & pepsi into my camp prep, taking time to reflect on the beginnings of my camp love. And on the night before I would often craft the perfect pre-camp playlist to listen to during the drive. Instead of doing all those things I found myself navigating the complexities of palliative care.
I always had a mini-celebration when I hit the "100 Days Until Camp" day and so I had decided that I would celebrate "100 Days" of this new life, which happened to fall on May 11. I had originally planned to celebrate by drinking my very last can of Vanilla Coke (that I had been saving for when I got a year round camp job), eating chips & dip and maybe watching The Parent Trap. I ended up spending the day in one of our organization's homes, which seemed like a much more fitting celebration. Even if it didn't involve any Vanilla Coke.
On Friday morning after a full week of waiting for the inevitable, our community member passed away. Today there will be a wake and tomorrow a funeral. And amid all of those emotions I'm also trying to figure out how to navigate
summer life without camp. The combination of all of that has made me a bit of a hot mess these past few days. Saturday I did three loads of laundry and debated asking the neighbours if they had any to do. Yesterday I got groceries and tidied by apartment and watched too many episodes of Grey's Anatomy. This morning I am going to help set up for the wake and then likely spend some time at the office. Even though it's a long weekend I need to be busy and productive because otherwise I'm sure I'll find myself pacing the living room.
And maybe what I really need is to stop trying to keep myself busy and just let things settle. To give myself permission to be sort of sad but also excited about the possibilities of a summer without camp.
Sunday, 7 May 2017
Another month of radio silence around here...
Personal Life// The clique-ness is really hard. It's such a unique blend of work/personal that it's unlike anything I've ever experienced so navigating it feels impossible. I've been included in a few things but nothing fulfilling. I try to Skype with H. and/or R. every week or every second week and I've been going home one weekend a month and it's worked out that I've also made mini-weekend trips at least one other weekend. Things aren't terrible but I do feel rather lonely.
Hobbies// This improved by leaps & bounds. I am caught up with Project Life as far as printing photos goes and I have everything slotted into pockets, it's now just a matter of adding journalling and embellishments. I didn't take a whole lot of photos this month, but I did have my camera out a few times so it's an improvement. Blogging clearly hasn't made a come back but I'm still working on how to factor that into my day on a more regular basis.
Career// I knew being in the office full time would be huge but even I underestimated how what a difference it would make. I feel like now I can at least focus my attention in one place and that's helpful when it comes to feeling less stress. Again, I'm hesitant to make any sweeping statements at the three month mark but I will say it's not love. It is a stepping stone though and I recognize that there's lots to learn over the next couple of years that will be transferable. I spent some time doing camp related things this past weekend and it really confirmed that my long term goal is to get back to camp. I have no idea what that will look like but knowing what needs to get done is the first step in getting it done.
Spirituality// Eh, could be better. I got back into the habit of choosing a word of the week and still haven't really missed a day writing in my journal so those are good things. I was tempted to order a Bible journalling starter kit but finding something that is reasonably priced/can be shipped to Canada has proved to be a challenge.
Health// I've been going on lots of evening walks, which is great. Eating has been semi-challenging because I'm not entirely in control of my own menu and that's annoying & frustrating for me. Realistically this probably won't change much until the fall so until then I will just make the best of things.
Goals// My goals for April were to manage my stress better and make time for hobbies. I definitely achieved making time for hobbies and I think in general my stress levels improved. I also made a big extra payment on my student loan which was sort of a goal but not one I had specifically verbalized. For May I'd like to write some blog posts, make plans for a fun summer vacation and convince myself to splurge on an Erin Condren Hourly Planner.
Thursday, 6 April 2017
It seems like I blinked and March happened. In some ways that's a good thing because I keep telling myself that these months will be the hardest and once I'm over the initial hump things will be better. In other ways I feel like I'm no closer to that plateau than I was the beginning of March.
Personal Life// In some ways this has gotten better. I've never been someone who makes instant friends and it's not something I'm particularly good at doing. At the end of two months I think I've at least identified some people who might be on my wave length. I'm also in the office full time now and have free evenings four nights a week instead of two. That should help balance my need for introvert time with the necessity of making some local friends. This past weekend I went to visit R. & H. and it was lovely to spend time with them.
Hobbies// I didn't make any time for Project Life in March and barely took any photos. I didn't even pick a word of the week or decorate my planner during the second half of March. I know I need to change that for April because it's not sustainable and I can't let my entire life be consumed by work. (Especially when I don't particularly love my job.)
Career// I'm only two months in so I'm hesitate to make any sweeping statements but I'm not sure I see myself here long term. I'm confident that I will complete my current contract and there will be lots of great moments along the way. I have doubts about my ability to be happy here long term. If I'm going to take on a job like this that doesn't really end when I leave the office at the end of the day I need to absolutely love what I'm doing. On a more positive note I'm so very thankful that I'm still close to family and relatively close to H. & R. there are no required plane trips to access anyone. Maybe that part should have went with personal but it also fits with career.
Spirituality// I stopped reading Savor because I was frustrated with all the references to husbands and children. As I mentioned above, I also neglected to choose a word of the week for half of March. I did still add something to my journal every night, some nights it was a few sentences and others a few pages, which is exactly the expectation I set for myself at the beginning of the year. I think my current level of stress is preventing me from engaging in any sort of real spiritual practices. Which is terrible but I'm just telling it like it is.
Health// I still never missed a lunch break. Which is a culture shift I am incredibly grateful for, if it's getting a little late and we're all still at our desks someone will take the lead and remind everyone it's time to eat. This is a huge culture shift from most, if not all, other paces I've worked and it's a welcome change. I've noticed that the stress and anxiety are starting to impact my appetite but I'm trying to keep it in check and make sure that I'm not skipping meals altogether, although I've also been guilty of that a few times.
Goals// I'm not sure what I want to accomplish in April. I know that I need to make time for hobbies and manage my stress better.
Friday, 24 March 2017
Let me walk you through the kind of week it's been...
Monday. Snowstorm. I was filling it at one of the homes and was supposed to be there at 7 a.m. but the weather was terrible and there was no way I was driving through it at 6:45. I did end up driving through it at 7:45 to get there for 8 but it was still horrible and it was not a good start to the week. Because I was filling in at a house I usually work in the office from 9-12 and then have a few hours break in the afternoon before going back to the house and staying until 10:00 p.m. Because Monday was a storm and everyone's schedule was off I ended up not getting a break in the afternoon. And that lead to a 14 hour day, which was exhausting.
Tuesday. Again, the weather wasn't great and we ended up cancelling an evening event that we had planned. This was actually a huge blessing because it meant I was home right at 4:00 p.m. I made supper and watched Big Brother Canada and was in bed by 9:30.
Wednesday. I intended on documenting my day for a 'Day in the Life' post. I took one phone. A screen shot of the time on my phone as I was going out the door in the morning. The rest of the day was spent trying to catch up on e-mails and plan ahead for the next few weeks.
Thursday. Snow storm. That's #3 in case you lost count. Again the whole day was off, there were terrible road conditions and so many minor and not so minor incidents. When I got home last night at 8:30 p.m. I collapsed on my couch and had to search for motivation to get myself ready for bed.
Friday. It's retreat week around these parts so I went into the office for an hour this morning and then to chapel and then was with a small group until 3:15. Now I'm home for a brief break before heading out again for another evening event.
Tomorrow & Sunday is more small groups and gatherings followed by another full week of work. Originally I was supposed to be traveling for a training conference but that has been cancelled so there is some reprieve in there. I can't believe we're going into the last week of March. It feels like I haven't taken a deep breath since January.
I'm not sure if a regular schedule of events will ever happen around here but I do hope that it gets at least a little more predictable. I haven't had my camera out of it's bag since I started here and I've totally neglected my Project Life album. Blogging has been pretty low on the priority list lately as well. I know that I'll never find a perfect balance between it all but I am hopeful that someday there will be a little more equality.
Friday, 17 March 2017
I always find it challenging to start blogging again after a hiatus. I'm never sure if I should start with an update or skip through all that and start current. I did manage to keep up with What's Up Wednesday and What's New With You so there hasn't been total radio silence around these parts but it still feels like there's a gap to be filled. And the best way to fill a gap is will a list!
This was my view most nights last weekend. It my turn to be 'on call' with the emergency phone so I wasn't straying too far from home. Instead I watched a few episodes from the new season of Mind of a Chef on Netflix, indulged in pop and made simple but delicious pitas.
For February & March my schedule has been filling in at one of the houses on Sundays & Mondays, working in the office on Tuesday, Wednesday & Thursday and then my weekend being on Friday & Saturday. It's been rather exhausting trying to balance everything all at once but it looks like starting in April I will start a regular Monday-Friday full time in the office schedule and I am really looking forward to that happening.
I loved Full House, Mary-Kate & Ashley were everything I aspired to be as an elementary schooler and I adored the fact D.J. & I shared the same first name. When Fuller House premiered I didn't watch because I didn't want to ruin the magic and I was pretty skeptical of the whole thing. Last Thursday I was searching for something to watch that was light hearted and I could leave on as background noise and ended up playing the first episode of the series. I found myself texting a friend about how terrible & cheesy it was but I kept watching....all week long. And last night I reached the end and realized I had become re-attached to D.J. and the Tanner/Fuller/Gibbler Family. Now I need a season three and another show I can actually use as background noise and won't find myself sitting on the couch passionately texting R. all the reasons D.J. and Steve need to be together. Suggestions?
I've spent my entire life working/living at camp in the summer which means my summer wardrobe consists entirely of neon Nike running shorts, tie-dye t-shirts and a handful of sundresses, jean shorts and tank tops I wore on my days off. My new job is pretty casual...but it's not that casual. So I've been busy doing inventory and figuring out what I need to add to my closet before the warm weather arrives. The exciting part about that is camp has a very strict closed toe shoe policy, flip flops & sandals were for days off only. It has been years since I got to wear sandals all summer and I am so excited to buy some new summer shoes!
The past six weeks have been hard in all the ways I thought they would be and challenging in a bunch of ways I wasn't expecting. I am finally starting to see glimmers of light at the end of the tunnel. There are still days when I feel like I was handed the keys to a sinking ship but if the last five years of camp taught me anything it's that sinking ships can be repaired and restored.
Linking up here.
Friday, 3 March 2017
Personal Life// Ha. Part of me feels like I didn't have much of a personal life this month. Only work life. Of course that's not entirely true. I am really thankful and excited that 'home' is only an hour & a half away. This is the first time I've lived not with my parents but also not 6+ hours away. It's nice to have the option of going home on the weekends and last weekend my mom came here for the day and we went out to lunch. It would be nice to make a friend or two this month but honestly there's not many people around in my age bracket. Plenty older and a solid group of younger but nobody really in that 25-35 category. And the ones that are seem to be firmly rooted in their own social circle.
Hobbies// I didn't make as much time for this as I would have liked this month. I think I finished one card for my Project Life Album. Ideally I will get January finished this month and at least round up all the photos and memorabilia for February even though it seems unlikely I will finish the month. I didn't take my camera out at all this month...so that's something that needs to happen this month. In fact the sun seems to be peeking out today so I think this afternoon I will go do a little exploring. I also really want to start blogging again. I miss those interactions! Things seem to be getting into a better schedule in terms of working hours & days so I am going to make more of an effort this month.
Career// Somedays it feels like I'm still frantically dog paddling and trying to keep my head above water. Other days I feel like I have things a little more under control. I started at a really hectic time, February was a short month so everything that is typically done on a monthly basis had to be done sooner than usual. And the organization operates on a quarterly schedule so there were things like vacation requests that need to be completed for April, May & June. And some things changed in regards to how the transition was supposed to take place between myself and the person who was formally in my role. Which meant less training and more uncertainty. It looks like things are coming together though. Someone who was formally in this role 3-4 years ago has agreed to do some training with me next week. And I'm attending a week long training session towards the end of the month organized my the national organization so that should also be helpful.
Spirituality// I'm inclined to give myself a failing grade on this one. I am still keeping up with my three thankful thoughts each day, reading Savor every night before bed and journalling but sometimes it is done more out of habit than anything else. I thought a lot about taking on something else for Lent, doing something really great and embracing the season. And then I got real with myself and determined that it would likely end up adding more stress to my life so I'm not doing anything specific. I am going to make more of an effort to read everyday or spend 10-15 minutes in silence but I'm not keeping track.
Health// There's no real change on this one. I'm back to indulging in pop a couple of times a week. Trying to make an effort not necessarily to eat breakfast but to have some sort of snack around 9 a.m. so that coffee isn't the only thing in my stomach between the hours of 8 a.m. and when I eat lunch. I've also been really good about eating lunch in the kitchen with the rest of the office people. I've yet to eat lunch at my desk, which is a habit I would love to keep up!
Goals// I survived February! In March I'd like to do a Day in the Life post and make more time for hobbies. Keep moving forward and taking time to identify the progress I am making. I've had multiple people remind me this week that this isn't the time of job that you learn in a week or month. It's probably going to take a full year before I really feel on top of things, which is hard for my Type A personality to wrap my mind around, but it is true.
Wednesday, 22 February 2017
I had anticipated moving and starting a new job to be overwhelming...but I still under estimated just how overwhelming it would be. I really got thrown into things and in the past 3 weeks have finished work on time exactly once. But I'm carving out a bit of time tonight to fill out the What's Up Wednesday questionnaire because I know that I'll want to look back on it once things calm down!
What I'm Eating This Week: My meals have been just as chaotic as life this month. I've mostly been invited out to eat as I get to know co-workers and community members so I haven't been doing much cooking myself. I did make some veggie pad thai to have for lunches and I'm thinking that there will be pizza in my future on the weekend!
What I'm Reminiscing About: I haven't had time to reminisce this month!
What I'm Loving: I had to think hard about this one. I guess I'm loving the security of knowing this is where I'll be for the next couple of years. Having that consistency will help me budget better, figure out some long term goals and be able to focus more on the present moment opposed to worrying about finding a new job in 6 months when that contract ends.
What I've Been Up To: Just trying to keep my head above water.
What I've Been Dreading: I haven't really confronted the reality of not being at camp this year (or next year) and I know that's going to be rough.
What I'm Working On: Learning how things are done around here. Figuring out a good rhythm to my day/week/month and balancing work and life.
What I'm Excited About: I made it through the first month! It's been hard but I'm hopeful that from here things will get easier. I no longer feel like I'm going to burst into tears at any given moment because everything is just so overwhelming so I'm glad I'm over that hump.
What I'm Watching: Scrubs! It's been my happy little escape this month and I'll be sad when it's over. The verdict is still out on whether or not I should watch the 9th season, I've heard it's pretty terrible.
What I'm Reading: I intended on starting Yes, Chef by Marcus Samuelsson but I didn't get any farther than borrowing the e-book. I don't have cable/satellite in my apartment which means I can't easily access the 6 o'clock news every day so I've also been making more of an effort to read the news online.
What I'm Listening To: I've been listening to "How Things Work" podcasts on a fairly regular basis.
What I'm Listening To: I've been listening to "How Things Work" podcasts on a fairly regular basis.
What I'm Wearing: My go to outfit is usually dark pants and a sweater. When I'm not in the office it's been lots of jeans, t-shirts, cardigans and scarves. Currently I'm wearing pyjama pants and a Cabela's t-shirt because I'm aiming to be in bed by 10 p.m.
What I'm Doing This Weekend: The last two weekends I've had previous commitments so this weekend I am looking forward to staying in bed until 8 maybe doing some work on January in my Project Life album and depending on the weather my mom is planning a visit on Saturday.
What I'm Looking Forward to Next Moth: Settling into more of a routine. February has been off the wall in terms of schedules and planning. Most days I leave my apartment at 7:45 a.m. and don't return until 7:00 p.m.. It's definitely not what I had envisioned but I'm hoping that it's just a result of the transition and by the end of March my days will start to look a little more manageable.
What Else Is New: It feels like everything is new this month! I want to add blogging back into my weekly routine because I know that I'll regret not documenting the beginning when I look back on this time. It just hasn't been something I've felt particularly compelled to prioritize with so much else going on.
Thursday, 2 February 2017
Personal Life// January was a weird month because there were clearly two different outcomes. Now that I know the outcome February is going to be a weird month because there's going to be a lot of new-ness. I like routine but between training and moving and the learning curve I realize that won't happen instantly. I'm going to do my best not to let myself get stressed and anxious but it's probably going to be easier said than done. I know that the first two weeks (and really the whole month) is going to be the hardest so if I can get through that things will start going smoother.
Hobbies// I completed my 2016 Project Life album and have made a start on 2017. I'm still going the monthly route which is a choice I'm happy with. I'm anticipating getting 'behind' this month but I'm not worried. I am a big fan of using my Happy Planner so even if I get behind on Project Life I know that I still have that creative outlet. Bonus being that keeping up with planning will be helpful when I do get to catch up with Project Life. I don't have a great internet connection so I'm anticipating getting through a book or two.
Career// I have one of those now! Officially! It's going to take anywhere from 4-6 weeks to transition between myself and the person leaving. They are leaving the position but not the organization so there's sort of a big domino effect happening. It's not what I had in mind but it does come with stability and isn't on the other side of the country. So I'm going to focus on the good parts and get through the rest.
Spirituality// I'm still following through with my bedtime routine consisting of three thankful thoughts, question a day journal, Savor devotional and journalling. It sounds like a lot but most nights it doesn't take me any longer than 20 minutes. The past two weeks or so Savor has been disappointing. I'm not a mother or a wife and a lot of the blurbs have been related to those topics. And the past few days have involved the term 'hustle', which I despise. So I've skimmed over them but haven't really taken anything away from the readings. I'm contributing a lot of my journalling success to the fact I didn't make any rules for myself. Some days I write three sentences and some days I write three pages.
Health// For the first three weeks of the month I didn't drink any pop, only water. And then birthday week happened. And I sort of fell off the rails and returned to having pop a few times a week. I'm not being too hard on myself though because I still drank lots of water, I only drink one cup of coffee a day and I do think treats are ok in moderation. My attempt at doing a yoga challenge lasted three days before I got bored.
Goals// I accomplished 2/3 of my January Goals. I ended up reading two books and I watched one documentary. I didn't try any new recipes or restaurants though. I had lunch out for my birthday but it was at a restaurant I'd be to before and the other three times I ate out this month were at Subway and A&W where I had my standard order. As far as February goes I'm a little hesitant to start placing demands on myself. Surviving February is really my own priority.
Tuesday, 31 January 2017
If you've been reading here for any length of time you'll know that since finishing university almost five years ago (holy cow, I feel old!) I've only ever worked contract jobs. My summers were always spent at camp where I worked as the assistant director. My winters were most often spent working a super boring, well paying office job. And my springs and falls were a mix of the two depending on that years budget for both organizations. Towards the end of this summer I knew something needed to change. I was exhausted from bouncing between jobs and totally switching gears every 4-6 months and I needed something more consistent. So I started looking.
More than anything I wanted to stay in camping. I had a degree in camping. My entire existence revolved around camp. As much as I hated the thought of relocating far from family and friends it was a sacrifice I was willing to make. I applied to and interviewed for jobs in almost every province, plus a couple of states. And none of the worked out.
Sometimes I made it to second round interviews, sometimes I sent off an application and never heard a word. To say I was disheartened and discouraged would be a massive understatement. One thing that I kept coming up against again and again was candidates who had prior experience with the organization. So when I saw a posting in early November with a non-profit that I have been interested in for years and that is known for hiring from with in I didn't bother applying. And then I got turned down for a position that I thought I had a really good chance at. And by got turned down I mean that I had an interview that lasted an hour and a half, they seemed really pleased with my answers, discussed setting up a second interview and potential start date. And I never heard from them again.
Reluctantly I quickly changed a few words on my cover letter and resume to make them less campy and sent off my application to the previously mentioned non-profit. Weeks went by and I didn't hear anything. I assumed that they had an extensive pool of internal candidates and/or they couldn't see how my camp experience would translate to the position they were trying to fill.
I reached out to camp and said that I was essentially done with the job search, I would most likely be returning to my role as AD in the spring (or sooner depending on the budget). After much discussion the decision seemed obvious. All of the no's were clearly an indication that I was supposed to spend another summer at camp. The day I was planning to publish a post announcing my decision I got an e-mail from the non-profit offering me an interview.
I accepted and felt confident that I did a good job, but knew that most (or all) of the other interviewees were internal, I wasn't expecting anything to come of it other than give me something to do on a Thursday morning.
I was pleasantly surprised when I was invited for a second interview. This one was entirely scenario based. Again, I was confident in my responses but knew that I probably could have done better with more direct experience within the organization.
And then last week I got a job offer. If you had of told me at the beginning of all this the end result would be a position with an international non-profit for disabilities as human resource coordinator I never would have believed you. I also wouldn't have believed you if you told me that instead of trekking across the country or continent I'd be relocating two hours from home.
My first day is Thursday and I'm still not entirely sure what I'm getting myself into, but I'm trusting that this is the way. The next few weeks will be full of change and transition and general chaos so stay tuned for many tales of adventure.
Friday, 27 January 2017
I mentioned in my What's Up Wednesday post that I had finally given the avocado for breakfast trend a try. I wouldn't consider it a life changing experience but I have been enjoying this newly discovered breakfast. It consists of an everything bagel, bacon, cheddar cheese and avocado. Breakfast is my least favourite meal of the day but I attempt to eat it because apparently it's important. I probably have a success rate of two or three times a week. Maybe someday I'll be a breakfast enthusiast.
I feel a little obligated to include an update on the job front, especially since it's positive. I've been interviewing for a position all month (not even exaggerating). Earlier this week they officially offered me the position. I'm meeting with them on Monday to discuss details. Hopefully everything will come together and I will finally be done with job search stress. (And can move on to moving & starting a new job stress!)
It has been extra dreary outside this week. The weather has shifted between snow, rain & freezing rain with lots of high wind. Coffee has become a top of my favourites list this week. When I first got the Keurig I was much more adventurous with my coffee choices. Now I usually stick to McDonald's brand with the occasional Starbucks or VanHoutte thrown in depending what's on sale. What are your favourite coffee pods? I think choosing McDonald's Coffee over Tim Horton's coffee might make me a bad Canadian but I think I make up for it with my love of Ketchup Chips.
I spent an entire afternoon this week sorting through my stash of scrapbook paper. I got rid of anything that was too tiny to ever be useful. Since I've converted to Project Life my 12x12 papers were essentially useless, so I cut a bunch down to 4x6 which will make it much easier to incorporate them into my PL albums. I need to come up with some creative ways to use PL cards because I have way too many. I'm thinking I will use some as Valentine's Day cards and search Pinterest for more information.
I may not be interested in the antics of The Bachelor but ask me about almost any TLC show and I will happily have an in depth discussion. Whether it's the latest news from the Brown family or the adorableness of the Busby's, the fascinating psychology behind My 600 lb Life I can carry on a conversation. I have abandoned the Duggar's, but only sort of. I don't watch the show but I read up on their happenings from time to time. I like to think I'm not alone in my love of TLC, but I'm also pretty certain most folks choose to ignore the world of TLC.