Sunday, 6 August 2017

August Life 2017



Personal Life// I spent the month of July house/pet sitting and it was a really good break. It helped me shake off some of the post-camp life sadness and refocus on the things I should be focusing on. I am forever thankful for H. & R. who continue to help me navigate life, especially lately when sometimes that just looks like Skyping with me while I mumble about life. 

Hobbies// Having a whole house to myself instead of my small apartment meant that I spent a whole weekend surrounded my Project Life supplies and playing catch up. I'm still really far behind in terms of finished pages but I have photos printed until mid-June and have finished until the middle of March so things aren't as bleak as they once were. I am going to try to dedicate one weekend a month to catching up and hopefully by the end of the year I'll be up to date. I had my camera out more frequently in July and that also made me happy. 

Career// There were times this month when I felt really good about life. And then there was the week I spent mostly in tears because I can't believe I walked away from camp. I've been an emotional mess in this arena lately and it probably is going to stay like that for a little while longer. 

Spirituality// I've been doing a lot of research on Bible Journalling and am thinking about jumping on board that trend. I've always doodled and made notes in the margins of my Bible but I like the idea of taking it up a notch. The biggest hurdle is that I can't seem to find a n affordable Journalling Bible. I'd like one that has designated columns for journalling but I don't want to spend $100 on one. Suggestions? 

Health// Having a dog around made it so much easier to go for evening walks. And the warm weather always makes it easier to drink more water since I always have my water bottle with me. The eating breakfast trend lasted about two weeks before I returned to 

Goals// I still keep telling myself that this is the month I start blogging again. And then the month goes by and the opportunity is gone. There is a lot  of things I miss about blogging though and I think that once fall comes I'll be able to start figuring out some new routines that include more time for blogland. 

Thursday, 6 July 2017

July Life 2017



The one constant in life is that every time this link up rolls around I am shocked that another month has passed.

Personal Life// June was busy! There was Girl Guide Camp, a weekend visit from H. & R., a trip home and one rainy weekend that I mostly just spent indoors and rearranging my pantry. 

Hobbies// June seemed to have a lot of full weekends and as a result I didn't really make any time for for Project Life or blogging or anything that wasn't watching Netflix. 

Career// Maybe it's because I'm not the new(est) girl anymore but things are starting to feel a little better. Things are still 100x more difficult than what I thought they were going to be and that's hard but getting a little easier. Or I'm just learning to manage my expectations better.

Spirituality// Journalling is still going strong, I've almost filled a full notebook for the first half of the year and have a second one waiting in the wings. My 'word of the week' project ebbs and flows from week to week. I'm not entirely sure how many words I've gotten through but I know it's not on par with how many weeks have already past. 

Health// I'm making more of an effort to eat breakfast. Now that it's light out it's easier to wake up a little earlier and eat something before heading to the office. At least that's what I'm telling myself... I haven't been sleeping great so that might also be a factor. 

Goals// I'm working on a mid-year goal regroup post but in the mean time I want to focus on blogging more and getting caught up with my Project Life album. And doing some fun summer things that I haven't done in years because I've always been at camp!

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Thursday, 1 June 2017

June Life 2017


May was a roller coaster. Over the course of the month I experienced the full range of emotions...occasionally all within a 24 hour time frame. And all of the ups and downs made it go by so quickly. I really can't believe May is over, it's been by far the fastest month since I started this new adventure. 

Personal Life// The beginning of May was really challenging, the middle of May was definitely a struggle and I'm ending the month feeling a little better about things but still uncertain. This weekend I'm heading to Girl Guide Camp and next weekend H. & R. are coming to visit. Both of those things are very exciting!

Hobbies// I didn't make a whole lot of time for any of the usual activities this month. My main hobby was re-watching Grey's Anatomy. It was pretty cold and rainy for most of the month so my evening walks didn't happen. I did squeeze in one afternoon of Project Life-ing and managed some reading so it wasn't a complete fail. 

Career// I feel a little more confident in what I'm doing this month. Although I'm still so far away from feeling like I have things organized and under control. 

Spirituality// Journalling continues to be an important part of my bedtime routine. Other than that I'm not really actively doing anything to keep life balanced. 

Health// My pop consumption definitely increased this month, so I'm going to work on reining that back to a more acceptable once or twice a week opposed to four or five times a week. 

Goals// I did splurge on an Erin Condren! I still feel a little ridiculous about spending that kind of money on a planner but it happened. I'm excited about the hourly template and to start using it at the end of June. Once again I didn't do so great in the blog post department. June is going to be for reading, writing and organizing. 

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Monday, 22 May 2017

The First 100 Days


The week leading up to camp has always been full of little rituals and traditions. Things that made me feel prepared to start the summer. I would spend an evening assembling welcome bags for all the staff, an afternoon making warm fuzzy envelopes and many hours trying not to overpack but also not run out of clean clothes before the next laundry day rolled around. I would make sure to include a meal of three cheese pizza pops & pepsi into my camp prep, taking time to reflect on the beginnings of my camp love. And on the night before I would often craft the perfect pre-camp playlist to listen to during the drive. Instead of doing all those things I found myself navigating the complexities of palliative care. 

I always had a mini-celebration when I hit the "100 Days Until Camp" day and so I had decided that I would celebrate "100 Days" of this new life, which happened to fall on May 11. I had originally planned to celebrate by drinking my very last can of Vanilla Coke (that I had been saving for when I got a year round camp job), eating chips & dip and maybe watching The Parent Trap. I ended up spending the day in one of our organization's homes, which seemed like a much more fitting celebration. Even if it didn't involve any Vanilla Coke. 

On Friday morning after a full week of waiting for the inevitable, our community member passed away. Today there will be a wake and tomorrow a funeral. And amid all of those emotions I'm also trying to figure out how to navigate summer life without camp. The combination of all of that has made me a bit of a hot mess these past few days. Saturday I did three loads of laundry and debated asking the neighbours if they had any to do. Yesterday I got groceries and tidied by apartment and watched too many episodes of Grey's Anatomy. This morning I am going to help set up for the wake and then likely spend some time at the office. Even though it's a long weekend I need to be busy and productive because otherwise I'm sure I'll find myself pacing the living room. 

And maybe what I really need is to stop trying to keep myself busy and just let things settle. To give myself permission to be sort of sad but also excited about the possibilities of a summer without camp. 

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Sunday, 7 May 2017

May Life 2017


Another month of radio silence around here...

Personal Life// The clique-ness is really hard. It's such a unique blend of work/personal that it's unlike anything I've ever experienced so navigating it feels impossible. I've been included in a few things but nothing fulfilling. I try to Skype with H. and/or R. every week or every second week and I've been going home one weekend a month and it's worked out that I've also made mini-weekend trips at least one other weekend. Things aren't terrible but I do feel rather lonely. 

Hobbies// This improved by leaps & bounds. I am caught up with Project Life as far as printing photos goes and I have everything slotted into pockets, it's now just a matter of adding journalling and embellishments. I didn't take a whole lot of photos this month, but I did have my camera out a few times so it's an improvement. Blogging clearly hasn't made a come back but I'm still working on how to factor that into my day on a more regular basis. 

Career// I knew being in the office full time would be huge but even I underestimated how what a difference it would make. I feel like now I can at least focus my attention in one place and that's helpful when it comes to feeling less stress. Again, I'm hesitant to make any sweeping statements at the three month mark but I will say it's not love. It is a stepping stone though and I recognize that there's lots to learn over the next couple of years that will be transferable. I spent some time doing camp related things this past weekend and it really confirmed that my long term goal is to get back to camp. I have no idea what that will look like but knowing what needs to get done is the first step in getting it done. 

Spirituality// Eh, could be better. I got back into the habit of choosing a word of the week and still haven't really missed a day writing in my journal so those are good things. I was tempted to order a Bible journalling starter kit but finding something that is reasonably priced/can be shipped to Canada has proved to be a challenge. 

Health// I've been going on lots of evening walks, which is great. Eating has been semi-challenging because I'm not entirely in control of my own menu and that's annoying & frustrating for me. Realistically this probably won't change much until the fall so until then I will just make the best of things. 

Goals// My goals for April were to manage my stress better and make time for hobbies. I definitely achieved making time for hobbies and I think in general my stress levels improved. I also made a big extra payment on my student loan which was sort of a goal but not one I had specifically verbalized. For May I'd like to write some blog posts, make plans for a fun summer vacation and convince myself to splurge on an Erin Condren Hourly Planner. 

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Thursday, 6 April 2017

April Life 2017


It seems like I blinked and March happened. In some ways that's a good thing because I keep telling myself that these months will be the hardest and once I'm over the initial hump things will be better. In other ways I feel like I'm no closer to that plateau than I was the beginning of March. 

Personal Life// In some ways this has gotten better. I've never been someone who makes instant friends and it's not something I'm particularly good at doing. At the end of two months I think I've at least identified some people who might be on my wave length. I'm also in the office full time now and have free evenings four nights a week instead of two. That should help balance my need for introvert time with the necessity of making some local friends. This past weekend I went to visit R. & H. and it was lovely to spend time with them. 

Hobbies// I didn't make any time for Project Life in March and barely took any photos. I didn't even pick a word of the week or decorate my planner during the second half of March. I know I need to change that for April because it's not sustainable and I can't let my entire life be consumed by work. (Especially when I don't particularly love my job.) 

Career// I'm only two months in so I'm hesitate to make any sweeping statements but I'm not sure I see myself here long term. I'm confident that I will complete my current contract and there will be lots of great moments along the way. I have doubts about my ability to be happy here long term. If I'm going to take on a job like this that doesn't really end when I leave the office at the end of the day I need to absolutely love what I'm doing. On a more positive note I'm so very thankful that I'm still close to family and relatively close to H. & R. there are no required plane trips to access anyone. Maybe that part should have went with personal but it also fits with career. 

Spirituality// I stopped reading Savor because I was frustrated with all the references to husbands and children. As I mentioned above, I also neglected to choose a word of the week for half of March. I did still add something to my journal every night, some nights it was a few sentences and others a few pages, which is exactly the expectation I set for myself at the beginning of the year. I think my current level of stress is preventing me from engaging in any sort of real spiritual practices. Which is terrible but I'm just telling it like it is. 

Health// I still never missed a lunch break. Which is a culture shift I am incredibly grateful for, if it's getting a little late and we're all still at our desks someone will take the lead and remind everyone it's time to eat. This is a huge culture shift from most, if not all, other paces I've worked and it's a welcome change. I've noticed that the stress and anxiety are starting to impact my appetite but I'm trying to keep it in check and make sure that I'm not skipping meals altogether, although I've also been guilty of that a few times. 

Goals// I'm not sure what I want to accomplish in April. I know that I need to make time for hobbies and manage my stress better. 

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Friday, 24 March 2017

One Thing After The Next

Let me walk you through the kind of week it's been...

Monday. Snowstorm. I was filling it at one of the homes and was supposed to be there at 7 a.m. but the weather was terrible and there was no way I was driving through it at 6:45. I did end up driving through it at 7:45 to get there for 8 but it was still horrible and it was not a good start to the week. Because I was filling in at a house I usually work in the office from 9-12 and then have a few hours break in the afternoon before going back to the house and staying until 10:00 p.m. Because Monday was a storm and everyone's schedule was off I ended up not getting a break in the afternoon. And that lead to a 14 hour day, which was exhausting.

Tuesday. Again, the weather wasn't great and we ended up cancelling an evening event that we had planned. This was actually a huge blessing because it meant I was home right at 4:00 p.m. I made supper and watched Big Brother Canada and was in bed by 9:30. 

Wednesday. I intended on documenting my day for a 'Day in the Life' post. I took one phone. A screen shot of the time on my phone as I was going out the door in the morning. The rest of the day was spent trying to catch up on e-mails and plan ahead for the next few weeks. 

Thursday. Snow storm. That's #3 in case you lost count. Again the whole day was off, there were terrible road conditions and so many minor and not so minor incidents. When I got home last night at 8:30 p.m. I collapsed on my couch and had to search for motivation to get myself ready for bed. 

Friday. It's retreat week around these parts so I went into the office for an hour this morning and then to chapel and then was with a small group until 3:15. Now I'm home for a brief break before heading out again for another evening event. 

Tomorrow & Sunday is more small groups and gatherings followed by another full week of work. Originally I was supposed to be traveling for a training conference but that has been cancelled so there is some reprieve in there. I can't believe we're going into the last week of March. It feels like I haven't taken a deep breath since January. 

I'm not sure if a regular schedule of events will ever happen around here but I do hope that it gets at least a little more predictable. I haven't had my camera out of it's bag since I started here and I've totally neglected my Project Life album. Blogging has been pretty low on the priority list lately as well. I know that I'll never find a perfect balance between it all but I am hopeful that someday there will be a little more equality.